I had Chronical Depression at that time and that illness is a total bitch, maybe the worst part is nobody can understand u, u cant even stand yourself many times, you just feel un-happy (no necessarily sad), empty and meanless all the time, hearing a voice in your head telling you world would be better without you… maybe for normal people Erik was just a complaining bitch, but he was the first person i can relate with due to my problems. When i discovered porn i get obssesed by Erik Rhodes, Matthew Rush and Roman Heart and yeah, maybe at the begining i objetifed them as well… but when i discovered Erik Rhodes’s MySpace and later his blog… well, he changed my mind.
i have issues and a lot of times i feel alone i am the same age as him… i understand everything what chad said.
